i think i know what it means to come to the end of yourself. and i’m not really sure i signed
up for this. i thought i was agreeing to a fantastically beautiful, adventurous, and purposeful life. and i was.
but i also unknowingly signed up for surrendering all my desires.
and no longer getting to choose who i love and minister to.
and not getting to decide how and when God provides the things we need.
and not getting to be warm whenever i want to be warm.
and not getting to always be comfortable and lay low.
but, it was about time i learn these lessons. the funny part is, i feel so much better. so much cleaner. and quite a bit more whole.
love you. God is stretching you and that is good because He loves you.