every moment that we live and breathe and experience is real life and its ridiculous that we believe its not.

i have lived 21 and a half years which apparently count for nothing because i have not been living in the “real world.”

well, today i decide that is crap. we have been given every single moment of our lives, and each moment is worthy of us acknowledging it and living in it. i’m thinking about this because i realize that i have had this idea that i will be finally living “real life” when all these conditions are met. those conditions include having some sort of job, being married, and having kids. thinking about that right now i’m like “WHAT?! that’s ridiculous.”

there are two things wrong with me thinking that. the first being that i am not sitting where i am at and soaking up everything there is for me right now. even if it is a really difficult and emotional time in life, it is there, it exists, and it (or perhaps i mean God) has something nourishing for me.

the second thing wrong with that is the idea that everything will be better if only i have this, or that. ultimately, that will be completely unfilling and most likely result in disappointment if not depression.

it is for these reasons that the other night, as i was going to bed, i had the thought “the grass is green right here.” because its always greener on the other side, isn’t it?

it doesn’t have to be, and frankly, i’m tired of letting it. we have been made to live in every moment and to take from every season and place in our lives.

so, i’m checking out of this mindset that says right now doesn’t matter and everything will be better after ________.

be here. be now.