this was in my inbox yesterday, my soul needed it too:

“One of the things that I am learning even at 49, is that the Lord sees our life is such totality, whereas we see it in stages and steps. We’re always trying to figure out how we can use our most recent experiences in our next stage/chapter. But, the Lord looks at it as a piece of training that is necessary for the ultimate purposes (our destiny) in the kingdom. Your international experience will become a thread woven into the fabric of who you are and how you will ultimately serve God in the kingdom. He will use it. Store up the dreams that he’s putting in you. Don’t try to make them come true (disaster awaits that plan!!), but allow Him to direct your steps and He will bring the dreams about in due time when you are ready (prepared) to fulfill them.”

a friend found it on a man’s website and shared it with me.

i feel the thread woven throughout me. and without knowing where it will lead, i feel it hurting a little bit, i’m always aware of its presence. perhaps as i go through this time of waiting and hurting and nostalgia i’m being made more faithful and more prepared. i can’t see that, but it doesn’t mean it’s not there.

a little bit of hope has resurfaced.