if i’m to be honest, and i am, i just want something to be excited about.

and for those around me to be excited with me.

not having a job or something else i am excited to be doing really bums me out.

i was listening to this song tonight:

if my heart has one ambition, if my soul one goal to seek, this is my solitary vision ’til i only dwell in Thee.

it is beautiful. and true. i’m just not there yet. but, is anyone? can anyone say “my soul has one goal to seek?”


sometimes being melancholy is annoying to me.