so yesterday when i said i was knee-deep in sorrow, what i really meant was that i am still knee-deep in my personal struggles.
the ones that i have written briefly about over the past few months.
it doesn’t yet make enough sense in my head to be more than just an emotional blog post.
so i’m sorry if it seems that i am experiencing crazy grief. because i’m not.
i just haven’t moved on from some things yet.
there does remain a serious lack of hope and joy. i’m still waiting.
Thanks for clarifying. I was prepared to kindly ask you about this knee-deep "sorrow" that you referenced. Even if it's not as intense as sorrow or grief, it still makes me sad that you're struggling. My heart goes out to you and I pray that God grants you the joy and hope that you desire and that I desire for you too.
Tahnawannabehappy:
I do not know what to say about your struggles and I wish that I could just make them all go away. Like, wave a magic daddy wand and – POOF! You are at an interesting crossroad in your life, but the encouraging thing is that you now have your life mate and your journey is just beginning. There is so much in store for you going forward.
I am glad that I am not 23 and as poor as a church mouse anymore, but there is something to be said for the advantages of youth and a complete reliance on God for survival. So many have so much and they have lost a "need" for God and this is a real tragedy. Be joyful always as you are still and know He is God.
I do know that regardless of what you are feeling or experiencing day in and day out, this too shall pass. Several times in my life I have reached a condition where all that I had was God and I learned that He was all I really needed. Jesus is like the safety net that breaks your fall even from the highest of heights.
I do not know whether your current circumstances (work, finances, career decisions, unknown direction) are causing you to lack hope and joy, but I do know that all things come together for good for those that love the Lord. I have found myself incredibly happy lately because God has been so incredibly good to me. When I was down with my back He carried me along and healed me. As undeserving as I have been, I have enjoyed great blessings from above and so have and further will you.
Take heart in the fact that there is a powerful invisible force working on your behalf at this very moment. God wants the best for both you and Joseph and just that knowledge alone should instill both hope and joy in your very soul.
I love you very much. I must go now and find my magic wand so that I can send hope and joy your way. Regardless, I will pray fervently for you.
Love,
Dad
Thanks for the clarification sister – that was why I PM'd you.
I still want to talk and share my thoughts with you, but for now I will say I love you.